Someone can tell me why I can't freakin draw? LOVE, mah dears.

Falling in love always puts me in art blocks. Horrible, long, sucky art blocks. WHY!? And what about that muse bullshit? I must be a fake artist or something. Someone give me a berret and a scarf, plz. Who knows, it might work.

Believe me or not, THIS SHIT ([link]) is the only thing i've been able to draw in the past 3 WEEKS. THREE. FREAKIN. WEEKS. I disgust myself.

Worse thing is that he lives 2 hours away from here. So I have like absolutely no excuses for not drawing. It could be like "OMG, I CAN'T DRAW BECAUSE, LIEK, I'M TOO BUSY HAVING FUN WITH MY BOYFRIEND." but... NO. NO. NO. I just... can't draw. I look at the paper, i'm like "OKAY, YOU MUST DRAW". But... I can't.

Second worse thing... he draws. I'm not gonna start saying how wonderful, cute, romantic, funny, intelligent and talented he is but craaaaap. It's like "LOOK, SWEETIE, I MAED U SUMTIN'" and I'm like "AWWWW " And then I remember... "oh shiet, i'm supposed to be drawing too." Why is he in an art rush and me... in a freakin' disgusting art block.

My friend, who's in a long distance relationship too, told me "DON'T WORRY, YOU'LL GET OVER IT". I feel like being in love is some kind of STDs. (Some wonderful, rainbow flavored, hawtsexymama STDs.)

Jealousy, Dramas, Love, Propagandas. My life is so exciting that it would make One Tree Hill and Dawson Creek's writers cry for MOAR.

Finally, I swear I'm okay. Forgive me if it takes more time than I thought it would for drawing all your free sketches I swear I will do them.

4 in da morning. I should be sleeping instead of spamming you with crappy journals. Sorry guys